Just too much....

sorrow out there. The kitty I 'rescued' yesterday was tested and is positive for leukemia. This is a cat from the spot where there are still the mama and four of her five kittens remain. The fifth kitten is in a 'holding' pen until it is euthanized. I also was able to feel a new kittie's belly this morning that ambled up to me when I poured it some dry food on a sidewalk this morning, and she feels pregnant. Tiny little fluffball, very pretty colors - white with spots of orange and brown - when I got the trap out of my car, she got scared and ran a short distance. The trap was going to be used for trapping the kittens and mother but I had no luck there either. I just don't have the time to rescue all these cats myself. I need help. I wish there were more animal groups that could volunteer their time to help get these cats off the streets. I wish we had more people to foster an animal, even if they turned out positive, as these cats can remain healthy and be wonderful companions for a long long time if they just had the right situation. I wish I had someone that could help me with taking these cats to shelters if need be, as I just can't do it. Its hard enough going out there for an hour of my morning in the dark just to feed them let alone sit and wait for them to take the bait and become 'rescued' in my trap. I have a full time job that I must continue to go to if I want to continue to feed these cats. OK, enough whining. I must remember what my mission in life is when I am feeling this way: "I am an Animal Rescuer. My job is to assist God's creatures. I was born with the need to fulfill their needs. I take in new family members without plan, thought or selection. I have bought dog or cat food with my last dime. I have patted a mangy head with a bare hand. I have hugged someone vicious and afraid. I have fallen in love a thousand times and I have cried into the fur of a lifeless body. I have Animal Friends and friends who have animal friends. I don't often use the word "pet." I notice those lost at the road side and my heart aches. I will hand raise a field mouse and make friends with a vulture. I know of no creature unworthy of my time. I want to live forever if there aren't animals in Heaven, but I believe there are. Why would God make something so perfect and leave it behind? We may be master of the animals, but the animals have mastered themselves-- something people still haven't learned. War and Abuse makes me hurt for the world, but a rescue that makes the news gives me hope for mankind. We are a quiet but determined army, and making a difference every day. There is nothing more necessary than warming an orphan, nothing more rewarding than saving a life; No higher recognition than watching them thrive. There is no greater joy than seeing a baby play who only days ago, was too weak to eat.I am an Animal Rescuer, My work is never done, My home is never quiet, My wallet is always empty, but my heart is always full. In the game of life, we have already won."